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Grey

by Sam Ock

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1.
Never Ending 04:41
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[Chorus] Live, hope and pray for my joy will be everlasting I will live another day for I have neverending love [V1] so I'll keep my eyes on the way and shut up my tongue from sin put a muzzle on my bad thoughts in the dark places I've been but my anguish increases as I lay silent and still the fire, it burns within me I speak with my tongue, "show me your will!" are we all caught in illusion, just living life to and fro? building the castles and riches but when you die, where will they all go? everyday a part of me is dying is it flesh or the life within? I'm livin' in indifference, indebted into dividends of death but I'm payed for already, so I'll try to... [Chorus] [V2] I am learning to let go of all the things that poison me and take my life away I'm longing for an end to all the things that bend and break my sanity and faith The crucible and cleansing flame and the pain in washing all these filthy stains I pray my heart will last and stay I'll trust in you another day [Chorus] [Bridge] I believe I am more than a conquerer through the One who loved me first no death, no life, no emotion can ever take away what I'm worth (x2) The crucible and cleansing flame and the pain in washing all these filthy stains I pray my heart will last and stay I'll trust in you another day [Chorus]
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What Have I Done 05:06
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[Chorus] Oh God, what have I done Oh God, what have I done Have I ruined everything again? Oh God, what have I done Oh God, what have I done Will I make it to the very end? [V1] I am crushed to the point of death My fading love, do I have any left? Will I ever believe in you.. Will perfect love ever be my truth? Will You be my hope? Will You be my hope? [Chorus] [V2] Get ‘em away and out of my head the toxic, the poison is killing me dead I’m red, burned up and burnt out instead of a life of joy, my mind’s a death bed many days I’ve bled, my thoughts black and blue I’ve taken the roads, what am I supposed to do when everything around tells me what is true and yet I’ve tried it all and still I don’t feel new, shoot… I can’t trust my own heart ‘cause it keeps feeding me lies I’m scared to ask for help and I’m scared to even just try I raise the white flag high, even if I lash out, can you help me fight? Hear the desperate whispers as I lay crying… Please help me hope through the night, please… I want to hope through the night [Bridge] You redeem, You restore, and You say that I’m adored I could never imagine this… Every castle will fall, all my flesh with pass away Is there any love like this? [Chorus]
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Near 04:34
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[V1] I say the opposite thing, I want to be assured I want to know that love is greater far than empty words My cynicism many times irrational, absurd Pride it tells me that I’m further gone than any word I have the gall, yes I think I really have the nerve To challenge unconditional love to be a verb Many things I observe clash with what I heard The black and white makes my insides grey, blurred… I am much less faithful than you think I am my heart’s palate tastes bitterness and loves bland need to water myself, ‘cause I’m dry land i want to know but i don’t really want to understand… but i’ve come to know one thing to be alone, it could be my life’s ending so in all I don’t know, God I need You, I need You to keep me close… [Chorus] I’ll push away but I really want You to stay can You be the strength of my faith? I need You to keep me close… [V2] do you think I’m a fool ‘cause I deserve that I’m just a broken tool devoid of functionality why can’t You be my first resort why must You be my last resort… I am forgiven and I don’t deserve that… I have the remedy and didn’t even do a thing.. I’m making You my only choice I’m making You my only choice [Chorus] [Bridge] I am much less faithful than you think I am my heart’s palate tastes bitterness and loves bland need to water myself, ‘cause I’m dry land i want to know but i don’t really want to understand… but i’ve come to know one thing to be alone, it could be my life’s ending so in all I don’t know, God I need You, I need You to keep me close… [Chorus]
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Made For More 04:45
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[V1] will this ever get any better will this ever stop killing all my joy maybe it’d be best if I don’t stay… every single time, it’s a battle every single thought is a step of faith God, I hope to see the light of day [Chorus] I am made for more than the world has got me for I am made for more than this (x2) [V2] I want to trust that I’ve got a good thing even if I don’t deserve it it’s humility I guess, to divorce myself from the feelings of guilt, but I’m nervous what if it all just burns? ‘cause it seems the norm with all I’m concerned with take my pride and let it die I want to live life and feel like I’m worth it but it doesn’t seem worth it all the hassle and stress i don’t got anything to offer feel more mediocre than the rest and is this another test? to see the outpour of where this heart rests? “I don’t know” is my favorite phrase, but I’m trusting the song of serenity and grace to say… [Chorus] [Bridge] where’s my peace my lungs won’t let me breathe and all the broken whispers seem to stay incomplete my heart is in defeat I want to need, I want to hope and pray… [Chorus]
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All (More ll) 05:42
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[V1] I am worthless I am worthless I am worthless to me I feel nothing I feel nothing I feel nothing in me [Pre-Chorus] But I see the blood and I see the sweat and I see the tears poured out for me and it makes me want to change and it makes me want to change and I see Your blood and I see Your sweat and I see Your tears poured out for me and it makes me want to change and it makes me want to change [Chorus] So maybe I am more than what my feelings tell me and maybe I’m beloved after all and though I am afraid of everything I’m doing I’m asking you to help me give it all my all.. [V2] I’m a failure I am poison I have stained everything Given up now I can’t trust in anybody, even me [PC] [Chorus]
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Out of My Head 05:21
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[V1] what is this feeling I’m feeling what is this tranquility? what is this feeling I’m feeling I’m pretty sure it’s not peace… I feel a bit disconcerted I feel insecurity so where do I go, what do I do, get it all out of my head! [Chorus] I will hope in the light I’m not giving up this fight I am reaching out for love with all my might let me hope in the light even if it takes my life I will raise the banner up with all my might [V2] I am the one who has made this affliction and I am under the rod of Your wrath brought into darkness, lost all my vision driven to the edge of reality, mad I feel walled up in my own asylum I feel the rust of the chains on my skin these hidden beasts beating me into submission addiction and lusts of my flesh draw me in I know I need to reach out, but I don’t want to I need community, love in my life the steadfast type of care that never ceases and new mercies in the dawn of new light I want to believe, and I don’t want to be this way I’m sick and tired of my self-absorbed dread so where do I go, what do I do, get it all out of my head! [Chorus] [Bridge] all these emotions are crippling all the lies swim in my head drowning my life in this madness even no rest in my bed I know I’m being dramatic I know I’m hopelessly lost so I want to go, and I want to do… get it all out of my head! [Chorus]
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Long 04:25
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[V1] open my eyes and see the messy aftermath I’m a soldier fighting where truth and heart clash feel like I’ve been poured out, time and time again I’m weary and discouraged, maybe it will never end if I’m honest, I would climb into this foxhole I know that I’m a coward longing for the comfortable I lost my helmet in the dirt a long time ago my gun is rusted and I’m all out of ammo God, get me out of here...man, I’m desperate just another calm before another storm, I’m sure of it and why do I feel like the worst soldier in the world undeserved in every way of any medal or pearl my barricade destroyed, I’m so vulnerable I’m light-headed, maybe ‘cause I’m paralyzed with fear can you find me, ‘cause I’m buried underneath the rubble I just really want to hear.. [Chorus] It won’t be long won’t be long It won’t be long ‘til your time will come It won’t be long won’t be long It won’t be long until your time will come [V2] a time to be born and also a time to die a time to plant and a time to harvest what’s inside a time to break it down, and a time to build it up a time to weep, and a time you couldn’t laugh enough a time to stay close, and times of isolation a time to speak, and a time of silence, being patient a time to seek out, and a time to lose it all a time to keep, and times to cast away, watch ‘em fall a time to tear, and a time to suture up again a time where feelings kill, and times for healing them a time for war and a time for peace to settle in a time to love, and a time to hate everything from dust I came, and to dust I surely will return there’s something deep, something that makes my heart yearn I believe the God of love, and it’s Him I fear in every single season of my year, I know it won’t be long [Chorus]
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Crown feat J. Han and Ruth Cho 04:37
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[Chorus - Ruth Cho] don’t you...don’t you worry ‘bout a thing and any turn that life will bring ‘cause you’re on the road of gold and your character will mold into a crown [V1 - J.Han] I’m used to being laughed at petrified to pull my kimchi from my backpack so I settled for mystery meat and flapjacks wanting to fit in, I underachieved in math class huh? adolescent insecurities shiny placard on the interstate -- nothing new man, I thought I drove past that at 22 but surely it followed me, I see it from my rearview man, I just wanted a simple life Never asked to touch lives or touch the mic I was told that I was wielding a katana so I had to quit holding it just as a butter knife, right? complications. how much longer can I hold on? these character assassinations have been prolonged Tired of defending my vocation with a prologue Can’t take the heat; I want to leave, I need just to cool off [Chorus] [V2] I don’t really know why I’m this way I don’t know why I am not okay paper thin, the state of all my parts fold and rip me up, and can you see my scars it’s taken me a long time to put ‘em up all the walls coverin’ the true me, yup so the me that is currently in front of you a projection, hidden from the true blue but I want to get better so I’m trying to write down all my true letters vulnerable to even more pain but I’m trying to have faith, that to die is gain, so… [Chorus] [Bridge] ‘cause I want to get stronger and I want to get better and I want to go further I want to be free from the fetters so this is my plea I’m trying to find a way to new me dying to my own self maybe that’s good for my health, so.. [Chorus]
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Possible feat Ruth Cho 04:22
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[Chorus] I can change if You want me to I can change if I trust in You ‘cause I know all these things are possible with You I will change if You want me to I will change ‘cause I trust in You and I know anything is possible with You [V1] I remember, tears flowing, I would ask God, “if this is how You made me, how can I be flawed? I don’t remember asking You that I would be this way do You even listen to my heart when I pray?” if it’s so wrong, why does it feel good? the voices tell me that I’m simply misunderstood being my way, versus being what I should doing what You say is right, versus what I really would I feel the laws of the universe in my veins pumping white and black oxygen to my brain breathin’ life with a hidden undertone of shame I feel the wickedness trying to evict Your holy reign so even if it feels natural, impossible I know true inspiration is in the improbable so I trust that I might be wrong and true life is what I really long for [Chorus] [V2] and I know that I am not the only one the war within my chest leaves me undone maybe I am far too gone to change so look at all my mess and my debris I’m asking that You help me, honestly ‘cause I don’t want my love to waste away [Chorus]
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Got a Love 04:46
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[V1] I believe that there’s no condemnation I believe that I have been set free I’m a son living for the Kingdom all my life, I’ll see the glory come and I’ll have faith when I have need for my good is that You are with me [Chorus] I got a love that will never go away I got a love and it’s always here to stay no death, no life can move me from Your sight You love will shine all the while I’ve got Your love that will never go away and I’ve got Your love and it’s always here to stay [V2] what? no I’m not ashamed how could I be with a love so insane? given to me, even with all my shame it really don’t make sense in my brain, mayn man, life is hard strugglin’ from dawn ‘til you see the night stars livin’ in a “tough-get-going”-type of world values twisted, a whirlwinds swirl so I say to all that Jesus, Jesus, He got my back matter of fact, He got my front too givin’ me strength ‘til the day is through, true… so I know love is this pourin’ out every day, hit or miss so when the going gets tough I put on a smile and say, “I got a love!” [Chorus] [Bridge] shake it off, go on ahead do a little boogie to the rhythm in your head shake it off, go on ahead do a little boogie to the rhythm instead [Chorus]
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Make Me Smile 05:07
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[V1] you ask me how I’m doing but you know I feel a little down, but my face don’t show I lie to you, tell you everything’s fine but you look for my heart, you read between the lines and you say so many right things the smile on your face, it kind of makes me want to sing you are the sun when my heart is blue my dear friend, I thank you, I thank you, I thank you [Chorus] you pick me up everyday when life gets me down you’re by my side and stay even if it’s only for a while you will always make me smile [V2 - J. Han] let me hear you say "oh yeah!" let me go and hit my two step let me hear you say "oh yeah!" let me go and hit my two step even when I’m dead broke got hope and I’m still counting my gold even with dead bones I'll thrive, breathe life into my cold soul let me hear you say "oh yeah!" Can't help but hit my two step let me hear you say "oh yeah!" Can't help but hit my two step even when I’m dead tired I rise because His yoke is so light even when I’m done fighting I rest and forget about the whole plight [Chorus]

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Sam Ock's sophomore LP titled Grey is an album exploring the space where the blackness of life and purity of truth meet. In a Christian's life, there are moments when the darkest of thoughts and emotions come into contact with absolute truth and hope. Both sides are clearly present and at war with each other. Grey is the expression of these two forces clashing within the soul and will hopefully comfort the hearts of many individuals who have also experienced the deep intricacies of living in a dark world with an unshakeable hope in Jesus Christ.

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released January 2, 2015

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